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was traveling last night, after a cool day at the office (was done with ma audit skedz in a lil time that it leaves me with so much time solving puzzles in the box world)…,out of nowhere a sudden pang of emotion hits me…i remembered someone…someone that i used to build ma world and dreams around with…someone that i used to love so deep and lost…someone who is stained on me…i wonder if this has to do with havin’ a twisted mind…one time was sure was completely done with all these…now i’m not a bit sure at all.

LOVE

they say love is a very intricate word…i’d say lovers made it obscure. how can you love and hurt as much the one you love?… you love me but seek sexual pleasures in the arms of someone else..is love not enough to hold on your manhood until the one you love is ready to give her all? does loving necessitate the act just to prove how deep one love is?

to YOU

you know i never would have wanted to give up on our dreams… to give up on us…to give up a part of me…but i deemed it necessary before our relationship could poison us both. it was not healthy anymore and i couldn’t trust you with my all again. it was wasted and i’m more than sorry that it was all over until now. i must say the break-up was not entirely your fault…i had my share of it too.  i was sorry for my shortcomings and i know you were sorry too.

forgive me if i kept hurting from all that had happened… i promised to be strong but there are times that I just feel too weak…as for you, i wanted you to be happy… if you love someone new now please be faithful enough to her. keep the lessons learned from our past as I do…take good care of yourself… i’ll always care for you.

I SWEAR THAT’S TRUE..

you’re stained on me……..

it’s  already 4:00 am and im still up..whatz got into me, that im not sure..maybe caffeine or a lot of caffeine??..which is which?..ahh the latter maybe…

jenny is still on though so i still have company but then her connection is such a pain in the  a** ..our chat is almost always interrupted.. so here i am writing here of juz a-n-y-t-h-i-n-g!!

ohh so now its SUNDAY..hehehe..peeepzz wake up wake up..its now time to pray and give time to our CREATOR..ohh sighh..its been long since i havent gone to mass..hmm maybe today is perfect to go and spend an hour with HIM.

well anytime is perfect but then as a a friend told me..goin to mass is still different so maybe i have to pull ma butt out of here and go to church. hmmm that’s gonna be great..hehe..

jingjing..thanks for the chat..duhhhh miss yah soo much..keep cool gurl..

have a great sunday everyone!!..

signing off now..

keep rockin!!!

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
‘Cause I saw the end before we’d begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what’s mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won’t stop there,
I am here for you if you’d only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I’ve kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I’ve been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can’t break my spirit - it’s my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile.
I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.
I’d be the mother of your child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine,
And I love you, I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I’m asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I’m kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so hollow.
I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.

***juz can’t help but post this song..hope u guyz like it!!..:)

jinx

well i juz found out how to manage this friendster blog and yah know make a post and blah blah blah..

so here i am..writing or lemme juz say letting ma fingers type whatever that cumz firzt in ma mind..

okiez..as of the moment im surfing every bit of info i can get about sweethearts borgy and ornussa..well more of borgy coz since the time he graced the sharon cuneta show (with his equally famous bro tj) and heard him answer all the questions intelligently i cannot juz let him drop off in sum part of the world without knowing whatz new with his life..the latest news however proved to be a real disappointment for me..hope its not true that he engaged into a fistfight juz over a gurl..damn thatz sure is f***in stupid!..ooppzzz..hehehe..

nah nah nah.."do you believe in me i know

ur

mine..and though u refused to see..i know

ur

mine.."..this is ma fave line of ma fave song..and entirely nuthin to do with borgy..haha..he can never be mine..(ohh duhh!..stars can fall!)..yeah i know stars can fall…but im full of loves**t..buahahaha..thanks to ma bezz..muahh muahh muahah!! muaahahaha..!!!..

to ma frenz..especially ma friday groupie..thanks for your undying support and love..to kaka.. keep yahself as beautiful ever..and yah can have ma bezz male bezfren..!!jejeje..to cyang..helluuueerr thanks for bein a gurly gurly and our fashion guru..it keepz me bein up-to-date to the latest fashion (im a gurl im a gurl!!!) …to apple..im sure u’ll sumday be a billionaire..buahahahahahaa…!!!

DINER DASH..i love this game!!..

TUMBLEBUGS are still bugzzz..

ELVIS is still dead..

And im still ALIVE!!!..buahahhaahahah..PSYCHOS RULE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aaaaloveeeyyaaahhh…